I remember when I was in the sixth grade, I finished the school year having had almost forty afterschool detentions. Many of these detentions (about ten of them) stemmed from a sigle incident where I decided to climb out of a classroom through a window and onto a roof but they were the accumulation of talkng out of turn, disrupting class, and conflict with peers. It didn't end with detention though because for every detention I had, my mom made me write a few chapters of Proverbs. I got pretty familiar with the book of Proverbs.
You see, all of the conflicts and detentions stemmed from my desire to be the center of attention. I naturally want to be the center midfielder in soccer, the lead role in the play, and the head of a peer group. When asked a question, I want to have an immediate answer, to always be right, and to appear impressive. I also have natural insecurities from this desire to be in the spotlight. I desire recognition for my work and affirmation for my actions.
There are a lot of verses in Proverbs that describe foolish people and that apply to me and the one that I want to use is Proverbs 29:11, A fool gives full vent to his spirit, but a wise man quietly holds it back. It's okay for me to be extroverted and there is nothing wrong with me wanting to be a leader, wanting to voice my opinion, and want to make a difference. However, my life struggle will always be to restrain that enthusiasm. I have had to learn to listen. I have had to learn to stay quiet and I have had to learn to think through my words before giving them. As I grow in the Word and grow in the Spirit, I hope to continue to equip myself with attributes of a wise man: patience, understanding, and humility.