My baby Serafina (Fifi), just turned nine years old this week. I can’t believe I have been her mom for nine years. She has truly been a miracle in my life. As many of you know she was born with a cleft lip and palate. I found out about three months into my pregnancy that I would have a child that had a disability. They could see her cleft lip on the sonogram. While I was pregnant I worried all the time that there would be other things wrong with her. The doctor’s couldn’t be sure that there were not other things wrong. Usually a cleft lip meant that other things were wrong. They wanted to do an amniocentesis to see if there were other defects, but since there was such a high risk that I could miscarry her, I decided it was not worth the risk. It really didn’t matter anyway because I was going to keep her no matter what. This baby was a gift from God and I was responsible for her. Although I did worry, I really had to develop my faith in God during this time. This was the time that my relationship with God grew leaps and bounds. Not knowing anything I had to trust that God knew I was the right mom for this little girl.
It has been a long road filled with surgeries, with more to come, intensive speech therapy, lots of tears over why she looks different than other kids. But it has also been nine years of the best hugs ever, laughter and joy and through it all God has been faithful. I truly believe that she was sent into our family to teach us all how to have faith that God knows our path and that we need to love unconditionally no matter what struggles we face. I feel so blessed to be her mom because I can’t imagine my life without her. Her strength and love is truly an inspiration to me.
Happy Ninth Birthday Fifi! You are an amazing little girl.